This is a comment given by my best friend :)

My take … we always go out to water our gardens …

Then you can eat the fruit…. DAILY

Andrian

Posted: April 18th, 2008 under Sharing.
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I woke up at 5am this morning with a thought about a tree.
A tree??? Yes… A tree.
Weird? Yes, I felt weird this morning.The question was on my mind, how to turn a seed into a beautiful, strong and fruitful tree?

Half asleep… I thought slowly, for example an apple tree… I should plant the seed in the right soil, nurture it - make sure it gets enough water, sunshine and the right care… And it needs a process and time to grow… Eventually it will grow bigger, with strong roots, shady, and fruitful. It will survive in any season and weather, even the stormy one, it can cover the human to rest under the tree - from the heat or rain, and it gives fruits for eat.

And if I don’t put it on the right soil, it might not grow, or grow in suffer, not strong enough to stand the stormy weather.

If I don’t give it enough water, and take care of it in the right way (treating it as an apple tree, instead of cactus), the it might not grow, or grow in suffer, not strong enough to stand the stormy weather.

What about if I take care of it, nurture it in the beginning, and neglect/ignore it after I see it growing? It might be dying and die eventually, and will not be able to survive for the next season.

As simple as that… That’s the lesson that I learn from a nature. That thought brought me to think about my life and whether I have nurture the seeds (love, dreams, work, etc.) In my life.

Same with our lives, if we don’t nurture it with the right way, we will never reach our dreams and get what we wants.

When I want to reach my dream, I should take care of it with the right way (might be different way for each dreams), nurture it… With patience, walk in time and let the dream become bigger and true in my life, or else it will die and will only be a dream, and never come true.

When I put a seed of love, I should take care of it, nurture it - with the right way (maybe through a communication, understanding, listening, respect, cares, trust, etc.) - effort to grow it, and as the time goes by, it will prove and show a true love… Or else it will die, and forgotten by the end.

Posted: April 18th, 2008 under Sharing.
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Recently I learn about ‘How to choose the right partner’, from CD series, by Rev. Kong Hee. 12 CDs, with 6 topics. Interesting, yet realistic, and also difficult to do… He was talking about the purpose of partnership (in terms of a man and a woman relationship which involve romance), 8 types of relationships that will not work, 8 fatal mistakes in the relationship, 5 time bombs in compatibility, 7 qualities to find in a partner, and the last one is about compatibility and commitment.I was reminded, that I have a choice… my own choice to choose my own partner… as well as the other person… they have their own choice… it’s all a matter of choice… the choice that will lead you to the commitment of a life time.

When you choose the right partner, then it will be a “heaven on earth”
When you choose the wrong partner, then it will be a “living hell”

Rev. Kong Hee also taught that… marriage or living together… need a certain depth of emotional attach, understanding, communication, availability to each other and some other efforts to do. While trust and respect is the main thing to be there together with love (just exactly like what I have thought for long time - trust and respect)

We are supposed to make intelligence love choice, that we need to be wise, and learn to make the right choice. There’s no a perfect choice… but there is a right choice.

After hearing the teaching, I’m thinking where I am now, and what I’m doing with this ‘looking for the right partner’ process.

The last couple weeks… I learn a new thing… that to make a right choice… it takes time, and it will takes a good consideration, and I shouldn’t be in a rush to choose. I”m slowing down myself as a result… giving a chance to myself to understand further about the whole situation… before I make my important decision to choose what to do…

To know that someone that I love really care about me… it’s a big relieve… and it gives me hopes… and I learn to trust him… that with his own way, he will try to choose fairly for himself… and for the one that he really loves… and that each of us will go towards the ‘heaven of earth’… either together or with different partner for each of us…

To love is a blessing
Though today I should love from a far
But I know that this is not an illusion
It’s a reality, since I can feel the pain
When tears coming out of my heart
Yet I can feel peaceful
To know that he cares
To know that he will be there for me
To know that he will always keeps his eyes on me
May God help each of us
To make each of our decision… on the right time… for the right choices…
So we will reach the ‘heaven on earth’ by the end
Thanks for letting me know that you care

Posted: April 11th, 2008 under Thoughts.
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Do you know how it feels to be free? :)

It feels like you can breath the air as much as you want, and smile as wide as you can… dancing around like the bird flying to the sky… being in the highest state of mind… perhaps it feels a little bit like being drunk hehehe… but no headache and throwing up at the end.

It’s been a while since I feel so free :). Being free makes me feel so positive, and sleep well at night, wake up early and fresh in the morning, excited to do my works, and happy to meet my friends around… feel so grateful for a new day that has come.

I feel free after I’m able to break the confusion in my mind. Life is about taking a risk, and when we’re in the position of being indecisive, it feels like a trap. For a few years, I was indecisive of certain things. And now, just recently… I finally made up my mind for important things in my life. I’m taking a risk… and now I’m glad I have made my choices, though I don’t know what will happen tomorrow, but I feel free, less burden, and contented inside.

Learn to walk in faith, and believe that the God that I trust is taking me to the right place in His plan. Once I try to put on all my worries to Him, I feel so free… light step… though tomorrow is unknown. Recently I have been learning about making ‘the right decision’, obedience, and faith. It was a struggle… and once I pass it… I feel like flying to the sky, just like a student has passed her examination, and ready to go the next stage :).

When I have to learn to obey on God, and to put faith in Him, it felt so difficult to trust on something I cannot see and I cannot hear. Just once I cross the bridge of faith, everything feels so different. I don’t feel imprisoned by the feeling, my own understanding and thoughts. I feel so free :).

I’m ready to move on, and open myself for new things and new chances… ready to continue my journey alone… and I know… in the next few step in my life, I’ll meet my other half soulmate… :). So now… I want to enjoy every minute that I have with myself, I’m enjoying the solitude moment, having a private time to chat with the God that I believe, having my books with me, traveling to the places that I want to go, being with my lovely friends and family, doing my job, and writing as much as I can :).

Next thing to try… the sky diving, or something similar… I want to fly like a bird :)

I feel so free… :)

Posted: April 4th, 2008 under Sharing.
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Last year, I wrote my thought about marriage and commitment. By that time I didn’t know what exactly my point of view about marriage and commitment.

These days, the thought coming back to me, and I found something quite interesting, that in every marriage, there’s always a hardship, the cinderella story - forever and ever - is not there, and it needs a lot of effort from both side, awareness to work on the hardship coming should be there, or else.

To get married, or to stay in a long time commitment, is a big decision, where I think (as for myself) a careful thought should be made. I’ve seen people’s marriages. Some fails, some succeed, some struggling, and some others are great. From them I learn a lot of things, and the most important thing is that I need an equal partner. It means that both side, should have at least a basic fundamental agreement on how to walk on the journey together… such as how to solve the problems appear, how to understand each other, how to communicate to each other, etc. I also realize that there’s no instant equal partner, we all have to learn to grow together along the journey, understanding each other, and learn to adjust to each other. Love is needed, but I don’t think that I will get married just because of love.

I learn that love is the requirement for the marriage and commitment, because when you love someone, you will learn to give the best to the one you love. So I still have to review what kind of love offered… selfish love, or the pure love (though it’s very rare these days, I still believe it is exist somehow).

I’ve learnt from some close friends, by seeing their marriage lives, there are a common thing in their marriage:
- Trust is exist in their relationship
- Respect towards each other exist in their relationship
- Love - the type of giving love to each other also exist in their relationship
- Communication exist in a healthy way
- Vision - the couple has made a vision together as the goal of their journey together

And at the same time, I learn from those who have failed in their marriage:
- No trust to each other, or at least to one of the person
- No respect towards each other, or at least to one of the person
- No communication, everyone is talking, or one is keep on talking, and the other one rarely talk, or both rarely talk

The last one week, I’ve been thinking about whether I would like to participate myself in a marriage stage (life time commitment), the answer is YES, IF I can find someone who has the prospect of being an equal partner. And I also realize that I’m not in a hurry… well regarding my age which is over 30… I’m not afraid anymore, to spend more time to look carefully for the possible future equal partner for marriage, for it is a life time commitment. I have no time limit now, as I need to find someone that I can trust, respect, and have a good communication with, and able to learn to grow together. I know it will takes time to find one ;).

Marriage life doesn’t seem so scary anymore to me, and at the same time it is not an urgent thing to do :).

Love is a simple thing
Yet it feels so complicated
To commit to love in whatever situation
Need a faith that one is able

What is love without a trust?
What is love without a respect?
What is love without a good communication?
Love is nothing without cares

I do have the love for one
But I do not have a communication
While trust and respect still left unanswered
Should I wait?
Should I walk?
Still remain unanswered
Deep down inside something is whispering
To walk on faith
Let all alone

Posted: April 1st, 2008 under Thoughts.
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